| Comfort is like a lie whispered |
[Oct. 1st, 2004|10:44 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sum 41 - We're all to blame | ] |
Both my mind and body grow weary. My nights bereft of the soothing tides that sleep doth bring. Wild thoughts and feelings awake from their slumbers as the sunlight fades, their nocturnal lives devoted to keeping by bed sheets dishevelled. The tracks their dark feet leave sear and scold my flesh, leaving scars which tell the stories of their travels. As the devils scamper about the room, the night is counted, not by hours, but by the sounds that run the streets at night. my only comfort is the soft moon light, which filters through the heavy cloths of darkness, trying to drive out the night. |
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| One foot in the gutter, one on the grass |
[Jun. 23rd, 2004|05:24 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | crushed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Streets - Dry Your Eyes | ] |
At the moment I’m drifting through life without intention. Holding my thoughts and feelings back with chained rings of iron, which wrap and shrink around my wrists.
Feeling dazed and broken, I step back to take a spectator’s view at life, and feel the world spin and twirl around my head whist I stand without motion.
These shackles I wear, I wear with contempt, yet the cold iron clamps which restrain my mind console me, keep me from harm.
However, the things that I have truly learnt to loathe, are the fleeting thoughts which dart in and out of my head.
That conjure worlds within my mind, that show what my life would have been like if only I had have taken the paths I myself wanted, and not those which people had told me were safe.
I guess this is why movies like "A Guy Thing" hold so much appeal to me. The main character himself, played life safe, and whilst he had a stable lifestyle. He found himself in a place he didnt want to be. It wasn't until he started to take more chances, and gambled with life that he not only started on his own path, but ultimately found himself.
Does it generally hold true that taking risks makes one happy? |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 16th, 2004|07:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Slipknot - Wait and Bleed | ] |
I want that life... |
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| ...ergh |
[Jun. 8th, 2004|11:33 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | crushed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Obie Trice - The Set Up ft. Nate Dogg | ] |
Help me..... |
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| stupid ball, the hole is your home, are you too good for your home?! - Happy Gilmore |
[Jun. 8th, 2004|03:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | simple plan - perfect | ] |
...time to go home draws closer, I always dread going home, no matter what is happening, people always find reasons to fight, over absolutely nothing, and it gives me the irrates. Plus there is the whole dettachment from the world thing, that never really impressed me. But what can you do. I suppose I'll geta bit of work done, providing the solar power holds up, and there is plenty of fuel for the generator... For most people going home is something to look forward to. I just sit here and try and put it off. But these things happen, we cant be happy all the time, people would think your wierd. A few things going on at the moment to keep my mind devouring itself, I really don't need the stress. Was planning on going away for the weekend, but unfortunately I don't think it will be able to go ahead. Which is upsetting because I was really looking forward to it. But yea... I hate LJ, most of wat i put in here is private anyways and what I do put in here, no-one knows about, not much difference. Just being a sheep I suppose. Don't think i'll be a serious user. What little novelty exists will wear off soon. Although Semagic is pretty cool if anyone is listening. Its an LJ client, pretty cool. Feel quite drained at the moment, not a good feeling, most likely what 95% of uni students are feeling at the moment. But I ddont think its because of uni. I dont know what it is. Probably just all the extra work I always have hanging over my head. As I finish one thing, i get 2 things to replace. Whilst I NEED the money desperately, id love a break. A break from everything really. I was saying this morning, I would love to make up, actually have the energy to bounce out of bed, be greeted by a beautiful warm morning, and not have a thing to do anything all day. And all you do is hang around with freinds. But I can't see that happening for quite some time. In fact I'm not even sure that it is possible these days for anyone. I miss the days when I was still a kid. Everything was much simpler back then, no hard decisions, what little work I did have was piss easy, and the most stressfull thing on my mind was the girl at school who wouldnt pay me the attention I wanted, or the part I couldn't pass in whatever game I was playing at the time. Are these really supposed to be the best days of our lives?! |
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| Once apon a time.... |
[Jun. 8th, 2004|02:46 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Vines - Autumn Shade II | ] |
there were 3 people who ate pizza and watched movies. Hey, what did we watch?! ...ahhh Van Wilder. now if there was ever a person that I would want to be, it would be him. I know it may sound obsurd, but I find that movie very inspiring, yea i know, a National Lampoons movie being inspiring. well you have to keep my personality in mind when trying to come to terms with this. A great leader. I'd love to be someone who could inspire other people, someone that people can look towards and follow. But i'll live with what I have and what I can do, untill that time where I can find that "Dare to be great" moment. I just hope I realise it when the time is at hand. Well, obviously I'm a little tired, time to think up a few more designs and then go to bed I think... Still haven't recieved an e-mail from Lake Fyans regaurding my web design proposal (basically 3 nights free accomodation for design and development of a new website), pfft It's a bargain, they'd be fools not to take it :D |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 7th, 2004|02:42 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cynical | ] |
| [ | music |
| | N.E.R.D - Wonderful Place | ] |
Sitting on bed singing
x green bottles
Hanging on the wall
x green bottles
Hanging on the wall
And if y green bottles
Should accidentally fall
There'll be x-y green bottles
Hanging on the wall
Muttering to self
"Stupid mphmhph LJ mphpt, bloody shptft people"
People to be blamed for this will be mentioned soon |
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